just another day

ok back to why I started this blog

So I started this blog to talk about my journey to a healthy me....So far I've posted a bunch of photos and vented about stuff that was bugging me.....Well it's all part of it. Taking pictures makes me happy and venting gets rid of the negative stuff inside.

The weight is coming off hard this time around, guess it's the downfall of getting older. A lot of my friends my age crap about getting older, their gray hair, wrinkles, love handles ect ect.....

I do color my hair but just to blend in the gray until it all comes in, I cant wait to go white like my dad and my grandma... I loved grams hair and I love dads hair. It's this in between crap I don't like. Wrinkles....well I've earned every single one of them and I'm getting the same laugh line my grams had. I actually love that one. Love handles well it's more like oh what are those bikes with the big massive handles on them....Those I can do without but they are SLOWLYYYYYYYY leaving. Getting old is kind of fun....Some things just don't matter as much anymore and you really start to relax I think the worst years are your 20's when your trying to find yourself and your screwing up all over the place. The 20's were difficult. 30's so so I've really enjoyed my 40's. I think I finally get ME. Once you have yourself figured out everything else just sort of falls in place. It's nice. So you have to put up with a few wrinkles, some gray hair and a little extra body fat.....It's a fair trade I think.

The agenda this week .....

Get Jenn's car fixed and running

Clean the house (early early spring clean)

Get Jenn back to school

Put up a work out schedule on the wall and do a menu for the next ten days

That's the plan.......................


JUST CAUSE...............................................................................................HE IS WHO HE IS...............

A day out in the cold with my camera...It was a good day! :)

So I spent some time out in the cold with my camera. It wasn't a total wash out I did get a few photos I was semi happy with..... they aren't great but they are ok .

At the end of the day you may find yourself Alone

I'm just sitting here thinking.....wow.

Exhausted and Sore

Bob Harper is kicking my ass! I'm so sore and my legs are KILLING ME. This is what I get for letting myself get back out of shape.

This SUCKS.

"It's going to get easier" , that's what I keep telling my self.


Still can't come up with a tattoo that I'm going to be happy with. I've sketched out a half dozen or so and I just can't decide. I think I'll try and get Chelsea to sketch out something or my sister. Let someone else do it, I'm just so undecided about everything these days. When your putting so much focus on what's going into your body and making sure your moving it enough every day I just feel overwhelmed with anything else, it's going to be this way for a few weeks until I gain some control again. I don't think Skinny Sammy gets it cause he's never had to deal with it. You Skinny people really piss me off sometimes.

:/



Let's see....Chelsea came home for a visit today, I made her buy some boots at work...Third time in the store I wasn't going to let her leave without buying something (with the amount of shoes there and the discounts on markdowns plus my discount, seriously) and I helped her pay for it so....She got some sweet gray boots. I love shoes, I could have a thousand pairs and not have enough... I guess that's where miss Jenn gets it from. Shoes and pocketbooks.

Chyrel and I are going to join a gym soon, that will be fun. I miss hanging with Chyrel, she's a card.

Work this week sucked, I was in "lets make lots of mistakes" mode. Like I said focusing is a bit difficult this week. Kicking the Caffiene hasnt helped much matters either. Can you say CRANKY that's been pretty much me this week.... Miss Cranky head.

ON that note i'm going to end here and say

YES!

5lbs down

My body feels like a mac truck ran over it (Thank you Bob Harper) but I feel like stuff is happening on the inside....there's a shift and that's GOOD!

I have a ways to go but the end doesnt feel so far away anymore.

At last

I think I've licked the Caffeine addiction. Took four days but, I no longer crave it or feel it's the first thing I need to grab in the am on my way to work. Replacement....good ole H20. I feel a lot better just having done that.

I made it through Cardio Max with out having to quit so that's an achievement in it self for me. May not seem like much but this old overweight 45 year old body doing jumping jacks....it's a site...Thank god for really good sports bras, that's all I have to say. :/ OY

If I can keep this going I'll be in pretty good shape by my 46 birthday. My goal is to not be at any set weight per say but more to drop a few sizes in clothing. I'd be really happy to be a 10 again so I can dig out my old Calvin's just for shits and giggles.

The only bad thing about dropping sizes is that my feet shrink and Ive recently bought some really cool heals that I'm going to be angry about if they end up being to big.

I'm looking forward to Jenn being home for a few day's before she heads back to school. I love having her home. We may argue but she's the bay and I miss her when she's not around.

I still have my Christmas tree up, She asked me to keep it up until she returns home from NY. We cut it fresh so it's still in pretty good shape. I love Christmas trees, if I could keep a real one up year round I would. Just decorate it for different holidays....

Today was a decent day, Came home early from work due to the snow/sleet storm. Watched some tv on HULU (I love that site) chatted with a few people and now im ending my day here with Sam in the back ground laughing his ass off to the Daily Show. I love his laugh.

On that note I will say Good night with a photograph from my archive.